What I Mean When I Say That My Mind Goes Blank

Hydrocephalus and the ensuing surgeries for it, have left my brain lacking somewhat. The most obvious consequences of those surgeries are the "mindblanks", where I'll be thinking of something (sometimes important) and it will literally disappear from my brain, like deleting a file from a computer (at times in the blink of an eye). Sometimes I'll get it back, but most times I won't. Focusing does not help and will most likely end up with me getting a headache. 

The blanks can happen when I go to sleep (think 50 First Dates. I relate to "Lucy" A LOT or our favorite forgetful fish, Dory from Finding Nemo). But they can also creep up randomly throughout the day. You never really know when your mind will just go "poof".

IMPORTANT NOTE: Please, please, please... if you ever come across someone with this condition and the ensuing memory issues, don't tell them it's "all made up" or "you remember what you want to" because it really gets to people. We punish ourselves enough, feeling like we're defective as well as sometimes question our sanity to have other people adding to that opinion (either consciously or not).

I Bought Lord Of Shadows!

The book is here and I bought it and... Yay! I can't wait to read it and tie the ends of Lady Midnight with the continuation. I need to see what happens with Julian and Emma, as well as the other Blackthorns. If I wasn't so tired I'd start reading it now, but I can't... 

 

Writing Update... Reading Update... Random TV Show Obsession? Whaaaa

So I haven't been in much of a writing mood lately, which means that my brain has been going blank a lot lately and that sucks. (Mind-blanks have run amok in my head). In addition to the headaches, naturally. I'm still on chapter 16, and thankfully it is written from my hero's POV because I missed his voice, if that makes sense. 

On the reading front, I've started Heartless by Marissa Meyer. And while I really like it, my one complaint so far is that I'm empathizing too much with the main character, and it's messing with my mind! (SPOILER?) I love the fact that she's a baker, and correct me if I'm wrong, but the treats mentioned in the book would make for a killer menu. 

As for TV, I've watched quite a bit of stuff lately. Thirteen Reasons Why (gutted me). Pll is ending?! WTH?! I must know the answers!! Holy Geek and G_xoxo on Youtube are my jam for theories.

What a Week...

Needless to say, I am exhausted after these past few days I've had. At least I got some reading done. I'm LOVING The Other One by Jiffy Kate, and Shearwater by Derek Murphy.

The first is a Contemporary that I KNOW will make me cry, and the second is YA Paranormal.  

I just got home today and... Surprise! My Hydrocephalus decided to act up by wiping my mind clean. So there's that.

So... Reading?

I loove to read. It's a way to help me escape and concentrate on something other than my Hydro and the resulting headaches.  It also helps me focus a little better if that makes sense.

If the book is in any way feels inducing,            I WILL cry. If I gravitate toward a character and something happens to them (good or bad) I WILL cry.  

What am I reading right now? I'm currently reading The Other One by Jiffy Kate. (Jiffy Kate is a writing duo, that loves to shake up your emotions).  The male lead is sexy. And yes, it hits you in the feels. 

*Let me know if you'd like a review

Temperature and Hydro

Temperature plays a big part in how I feel during the day.    I hate the heat because it gives me headaches constantly, and am always happy to encounter somewhat cold days. As cold as they can get here, anyway. 

On hot days, my headaches like to run 24/7. It is exhausting. They mostly knock me out, and I'll sleep for a bit, but more often than not, I'll wake up with another headache. It's so fun... (note the sarcasm. lol)

Cold days are a relief because the headaches take a break, but because of where I live, cold days are few and far between. So I enjoy them while they last.

Each case of Hydrocephalus is different. I've talked to others that say that heat is their preferred temperature, and that cold is their headache instigator. So it's an individual thing. 

Needless to say, my favorite time of year is winter, when it's cooler. (Because I live in Puerto Rico, and sadly, it does not snow here...)

Wanting to Write but Your Brain Just Won't Have It

Once again, Hydro has run amok in my head... I want to write so much, but every time I open the doc, my mind goes blank. It's so annoying! But I have to deal with it. At least my story is coming along, and I'm hopeful that I'll finish it. I'm still at 16 chapters though, but I'll get there.

I dream of the day when I'll see it on Amazon or Barnes and Noble. (reach for the stars, Gabby)