The Sun + Summertime Hate Me (rant-ish)

So it is that time of the year again, school is out, (now technically back on, sorry kids), and the sun is running amok... With my head. The heat and sunlight get stronger and so do my headaches. While they're by no means migraines, they are especially persistant now, and will not budge. During this time of year I wish I had a tap of cold running water over my head 24/7, or a walk in cooler that I could live in for a bit. 

This makes me fussy (which I don't like)
It drains me of my energy, which means I'm almost always in bed (most likely knocked out because of it)

Needless to say I miss wintertime.

Appointment With My Neurosurgeon

I finally got to go to my neurosurgeon (whom I also consider my neurologist). I've been going to him since I was thirteen, and he knows every symptom, ache and setback I've had due to my Hydrocephalus. He prescribed a routine CT Scan, (I prefer those to MRI's because the noise scares me. lol) and a follow up appointment in September.

A COURT OF THORNS AND ROSES REVIEW

I know I'm super late to this party, but better late the never. A tale from my childhood with a faery cast and lore. I found myself gravitating to these characters more than I did to their counterparts. 

The female lead is kickass and vulnarable, the lead male is dreamy, but a bit shady in my opinion. I can't wait to see what happens in books 2 + 3.
 

More Writing!

So... As of now I have 17 chapters with a whopping 102 pages! I've got chapters from my protagonist, from my villain, and now the love interest. I might go back to the villain's perspective depending on where the story goes. My villain is twisted. Really. But she's interesting to write. I can't wait to see what happens next!

Lord of Shadows Reaction (just thoughts, no spoilers)

So... I finished reading Lord of Shadows a few days ago. I wasn't able to post my thoughts on it because it left me a mess of tears and ensuing numbness, and I just could NOT process it. Cassandra Clare indeed loves to:

1- Inflict horrible pain upon her characters.

2- Watch us suffer horrific amounts of pain.

3- Toy with our emotions.

I was crying for a while as I was finishing it, and it was not pretty. (If you read it, you know why). My advice to those that haven't read this book, are in the middle of said book is to prepare yourselves for the inevitable pain.

What I Mean When I Say That My Mind Goes Blank

Hydrocephalus and the ensuing surgeries for it, have left my brain lacking somewhat. The most obvious consequences of those surgeries are the "mindblanks", where I'll be thinking of something (sometimes important) and it will literally disappear from my brain, like deleting a file from a computer (at times in the blink of an eye). Sometimes I'll get it back, but most times I won't. Focusing does not help and will most likely end up with me getting a headache. 

The blanks can happen when I go to sleep (think 50 First Dates. I relate to "Lucy" A LOT or our favorite forgetful fish, Dory from Finding Nemo). But they can also creep up randomly throughout the day. You never really know when your mind will just go "poof".

IMPORTANT NOTE: Please, please, please... if you ever come across someone with this condition and the ensuing memory issues, don't tell them it's "all made up" or "you remember what you want to" because it really gets to people. We punish ourselves enough, feeling like we're defective as well as sometimes question our sanity to have other people adding to that opinion (either consciously or not).

I Bought Lord Of Shadows!

The book is here and I bought it and... Yay! I can't wait to read it and tie the ends of Lady Midnight with the continuation. I need to see what happens with Julian and Emma, as well as the other Blackthorns. If I wasn't so tired I'd start reading it now, but I can't...