Monday, January 15, 2018

Mindblanks

I'm sure you've seen me mention Mindblanks in previous posts (because they happen so regularly), but I'm not sure if I've ever explained them or their effects.

To me, they feel like your mind is a blackboard, memories written on it, and someone takes an eraser and just wipes them away. Another part of that, is the "veil" which I think of as the mess after erasing a blackboard with a dusty eraser. This is due to so many surgeries. Long lasting brain trauma, if you will.

This gets very annoying when you're in the middle of doing something (writing, looking for something, etc.) and forget what you're doing. 
Now that I think about it, I feel like a mish mash of Ten-Second-Tom and Lucy from 50 First Dates.

It's so annoying... I have to carry a notebook, or take constant notes on my phone, so that I keep track or things. Anyone else ever feel like this?

Wednesday, December 27, 2017

What Is Your Darn Book About? Lol

The thought of this post came randomly (as do all), it I thought it might help me in the long run too. I read a writing prompt a WHILE back that said something like "a book character that falls in love with the reader" (That isn't exactly what it says, but bear with me), and it got me thinking that I had never read a story like that. Suddenly, I began getting ideas for the why's, the how's, and the what's. It's been a ride of emotions because I've gone from thinking I could do this, to feeling over my head, and back again. I refuse to give up. Not just for my story, but for myself as well. I know I want to be an author, not just a writer, but we must all take baby steps.

This is the preface: 


I was nothing, just empty words on paper, until her voice gave me life, excitement, and so much more. 
She began simply reading my story, adding new words in her soft, lilting voice. But then something happened that neither one of us expected. We fell in love.
But I was wrong.

Thursday, December 21, 2017

Headaches

Pain is a common thing with Hydrocephalus,  and it usually manifests in the form of headaches that can be either light or severe. 

I get headaches EVERY day, which range from barely noticeable, to "punch your face in". I have no idea what causes the variation when I'm not having hospital worthy symptoms. 

The light ones are annoying, but I can handle. The strong ones knock me out (or I wish they did, so that I couldn't feel them as much). It's a stay in bed with the windows shut kind of day when they strike, and they leave a lovely parting gift of "phantom pains" too. That's the sensation the headaches leave behind: my forehead feels tight, sometimes I'll feel busts of baby pains, but those are barely noticeable. 

Hydrocephalus. Never a dull moment... 

Friday, December 1, 2017

Writing Weirdness?

So I was finally able to pinpoint my writing process, and it is a bit funny/confusing/long, but it works for me. I start out with a notebook, I always try to keep a notebook handy, because (even though I deal with those dreaded mindblanks), words pop into my head. It's weird, I tell you. After the "word vomit" (please excuse the comparison, but it's accurate) I erase and write it all down again, but in nicer handwriting, and sift though it as best I can. Then I pass it onto my computer, where I do one final edit.
I can't be the only person that does this... Lol. 
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Thursday, October 26, 2017

Hurricane Season

As most of you have heard, Puerto Rico has been hit by two storms, and suffered greatly. (The last of which was the worst. Resulting in a month without light or water for some). This has left a lot of people homeless, and forced them to leave the island in hopes of rebuilding their lives. I only lost material things (my grandmother's porch came out of its socket, and my computer is on the fritz. I've been writing my story in a notebook.) Can I win a Twitter contest for one pls??? Just kidding. (please)  I've seen a lot of people downplay the situation, and that's okay if you're trying to move on from it, but I've also seen people attack those that have suffered, and that is just not right. How many disasters do we have to face before we empathize with others? Can't we support one another without having gone through similar situations? Can't we forget ourselves just a little, and think about those in need? 

I'm sincerely thankful to all of those who have come to our aid. You have no idea what it means. 

Friday, September 15, 2017

These Days...

Updates after Irma: She left a lot of deforestation, but we began to rebuild shortly after she left. 

These days have been BUSY for me. Taking care of my grandmother has left little time to write (I've managed to write 1 to 3 sentences in one sitting), and the heat is NOT helping me at all. I'm getting light loopy (lightheaded) and just dropping to sleep randomly. It is not a good time for me. But I will keep writting. I do not intend to give up. 

It would just be nice to get a break from the temperature, as headaches and dizziness have run rampant in my head.

I'm almost done reading A Court of Mist and Fury, and I love Rhysand so much!! I can't handle it... Feyre is kicking butt, which is awesome. 

Tuesday, September 5, 2017

Irma in PR

So after a few years of no storms or hurricanes, Puerto Rico is being "slightly" affected by Irma. I'm feeling a little anxious, but I know we'll be okay.  I urge other places in her path not to put off preparations. Do it as swiftly as possible, because you don't know what might happen. God bless + take care.
 Be safe.

Mindblanks

I'm sure you've seen me mention Mindblanks in previous posts (because they happen so regularly), but I'm not sure if I've ev...