Thursday, July 27, 2017

Appointment With My Neurosurgeon

I finally got to go to my neurosurgeon (whom I also consider my neurologist). I've been going to him since I was thirteen, and he knows every symptom, ache and setback I've had due to my Hydrocephalus. Summers are always bad for me because the heat gives me headaches, so I've been in continued pain for the past few months. But that's normal. All I can do is hide from the sun and stay hydrated. So I've been hiding in my room, drinking water, and writing to keep me busy. 

Friday, July 14, 2017


I know I'm super late to this party, but better late the never. A tale from my childhood with a faery cast and lore. I found myself gravitating to these characters more than I did to their counterparts. 

The female lead is kickass and vulnarable, the lead male is dreamy, but a bit shady in my opinion. I can't wait to see what happens in books 2 + 3.

Friday, July 7, 2017

More Writing!

So... As of now I have 17 chapters with a whopping 102 pages! I've got chapters from my protagonist, from my villain, and now the love interest. I might go back to the villain's perspective depending on where the story goes. My villain is twisted. Really. But she's interesting to write. I can't wait to see what happens next!

Sunday, July 2, 2017

Lord of Shadows Reaction (just thoughts, no spoilers)

So... I finished reading Lord of Shadows a few days ago. I wasn't able to post my thoughts on it because it left me a mess of tears and ensuing numbness, and I just could NOT process it. Cassandra Clare indeed loves to:

1- Inflict horrible pain upon her characters.

2- Watch us suffer horrific amounts of pain.

3- Toy with our emotions.

I was crying for a while as I was finishing it, and it was not pretty. My advice to those that haven't read this book, are in the middle of said book is to prepare yourselves for the inevitable pain.

Friday, June 2, 2017

What I Mean When I Say That My Mind Goes Blank

Hydrocephalus and the ensuing surgeries for it, have left my brain lacking somewhat. The most obvious consequences of those surgeries are the "mindblanks", where I'll be thinking of something (sometimes important) and it will literally disappear from my brain, like deleting a file from a computer (at times in the blink of an eye). Sometimes I'll get it back, but most times I won't. Focusing does not help and will most likely end up with me getting a headache. 

The blanks can happen when I go to sleep (think 50 First Dates. I relate to "Lucy" A LOT). But they can also creep up randomly throughout the day. You never really know when your mind will just go "poof".

IMPORTANT NOTE: Please, please, please... if you ever come across someone with this condition and the ensuing memory issues, don't tell them it's "all made up" or "you remember what you want to" because it really gets to people. We punish ourselves enough, feeling like we're defective as well as sometimes question our sanity to have other people adding to that opinion (either consciously or not).

Wednesday, May 24, 2017

I Bought Lord Of Shadows!

The book is here and I bought it and... Yay! I can't wait to read it and tie the ends of Lady Midnight with the continuation. I need to see what happens with Julian and Emma, as well as the other Blackthorns. If I wasn't so tired I'd start reading it now, but I can't... 


Friday, May 12, 2017

Writing Update... Reading Update... Random TV Show Obsession? Whaaaa

So I haven't been in much of a writing mood lately, which means that my brain has been going blank a lot lately and that sucks. (Mind-blanks have run amok in my head). In addition to the headaches, naturally. I'm still on chapter 16, and thankfully it is written from my hero's POV because I missed his voice, if that makes sense. 

On the reading front, I've started Heartless by Marissa Meyer. And while I really like it, my one complaint so far is that I'm empathizing too much with the main character, and it's messing with my mind! (SPOILER?) I love the fact that she's a baker, and correct me if I'm wrong, but the treats mentioned in the book would make for a killer menu. 

As for TV, I've watched quite a bit of stuff lately. Thirteen Reasons Why (gutted me). Pll is ending?! WTH?! I must know the answers!! Holy Geek and G_xoxo on Youtube are my jam for theories.

Appointment With My Neurosurgeon

I finally got to go to my neurosurgeon (whom I also consider my neurologist). I've been going to him since I was thirteen, and he knows ...